Inner Cry

That when the tears wiggle down, a person's grief is expressed up. It fetches up most of the attention of the surrounding beings. The grief shatters with each tear and minimizes. But if the sorrow's too intense, then the minimization takes time. And most of the times, the overall grief needs too much tears to diminish. That the tears extinguish out for that particular time. And so the grief gets no way out.
At such a time the grief gets trapped until some occasion welcomes it. And when the grief bursts again, the tears which have been recovered by then, shed out. But if the sorrow yet exists in within, then such a kind of grief feeds upon one's entire being.
That's the time when the innerself cries. And at that moment no one can know of your situation except the closest of your dear ones. In such a situation you have no choice. You just can't deal with any circumstances. You know that its in vain to cry over spilt milk, so you don't and are not able to shed over the tears that minimize grief. But the grief clings to the walls of your heart. And such a situation is definitely more threatening than even arteriosclerosis.
Expressing grief  too relieves you from the same. Tears can express your grief to others and relieve you from it. But when your heart cries in within, no tears are shed out, and so there's no one who shall pay attention to your situation.
For instance, if someone becomes obese then the fat layer beneath the skin that is physically visible shall gain people's attention and any being shall advice that fatty to lose weight or else he shall soon thicken his artery walls. And so shall the someone take measures to prevent the thickening. But what if a thin stick - like man begins gathering fat in his inner arteries? The person remain unnoticed, and he shall die of arteriosclerosis, just because that was something that happened in within and wasn't visible in the person's physical appearance.
A similar situation paves the way in case of grief. If the grief is from inner within, then it remains unresolved. And if the grief multiplies itself then that person shall indulge in grief resulting to depression and thoughts of suicide and so on. So grief is something that shall be taken care of.
I mean that crying in within shall not be permitted for our ownself, because that would not at all lessen the mourn. Instead, we shall not be ashamed of crying in public, beacuse that is something that will eat up all the mourns in our hearts. So that the internal cries don't start up.
It's very rightly proved that the mental and internal cries are more painful and threatening than the cries in which our lacrymal gland secretes its enzymes.
So whenever a grief strikes us, we shall remember that a loud cry with tears would definitely help to  relieve lots of internal pain and also spill off mental stress. So let the store of tears be finished up, buy more of it, or wait for more of it to be created naturally, and spill out every single molecule of your grief with the salty water that sheds out from the retina.
Though a smile can make a day, but with a cry, the grief shall never stay..... :)
Cry off, before the grief shall force your heart to cry internally...and the situation shall worsen itself....

Commercialisation of Festivals ~ Has it depleted the true significance?

The article below has been written as a speech for a inter house debate at school. I am the captain of my house and so have I written this speech for the candidate of my house. Anyways the person who asked for the speech had to speak for proving the point that commercialization has not depleted the true significance of festivals and so have I written it in that point of view. Otherwise, even I never used to agree upon this fact. But anyways, after thinking of the point from this dimension I think I am to take the side of commercialization....

Commercialising has really amended the way the festivals are celebrated. But it does not at all, point that the actual and true significance of festivals has been lost. Commercialisation has indeed added up to the expenditure upon the feasts and decoration but it doesn't mean that the true belief and the true significance is lost. 

If we take up Rakshabandhan, a sister tries to buy the best 'rakhi' for her brother at all cost, she does spends up all she can. But the inner love for her brother remains the same. And the true significance for the Rakshabandhan is the tightening of the bond of love among siblings. And whether the sister tries out to buy the most expensive 'Rakhi' but it neither effects her love for her brother nor does it loosen the bond. So how can commercialization deplete the importance of any festival?

Diwali is a festival of lights. The matter of commescialisation in this carnival is that the shopkeepers make too much profit upon the selling of expensive crackers and people buy the crackers that are expensive, for just showing off. But what does Diwali signify? Its just complete expression of joy upon the arrival of Rama. And its celebrated by bursting crackers for merriment. So, if we buy more crackers, then its complete fun in bursting them. So, anyways any cracker bursted brings out the fact that Diwali is being celebrated with complete joy. So how can it be brought out that its significance is being depleted?

The next fest in the agenda is Navratri. Nowadays, cash awards and tour packages are given to the best of Garba players. So it is said that instead of doing Garba as a worship to the 'Matajis' it is done out of creed for money and awards. But this blame is something not considerable as there are many Garba organising venues where awards are non given out. There too, Garba is done with the same enthusiasm and belief. So the worshiping of Goddesses, being the significance, has not at all depleted. 

The very next fest in the list of commercialisation is Ganesh Chaturthi. It is totally a religious festival. And it is blamed that people have started buying individual deities of Ganesha instead of a joint and group worshiping of a single idol just for the sake of show off. But this does not effect the belief in Ganesha Instead, the belief is strengthened as each individual is worshiping the idols with great belief individually. So in this case commercialisation has instead added up to the belief of people. 

The very next point is that nowadays, during festivals the crowd in the temples is remarkably increasing. This directly proves that the increase in the belief of Gods, say it be Janmasthami, then on Lord Krishna's birth temples are being overcrowded and the increase in the number of people visiting temples during carnivals points out, that the significance of festivals has increased manifold.

And after all, commercialisation has nevertheless helped people earn their livelihood either by selling colours, Rakhis or the attires for other festivals. And the only thing in commercialisation of festivals is that the festivals are being celebrated extravagantly and its obvious that if a cake is being garnished with cherries and other topings, it doesn't mean that the actual appetite of the cake is lost. Instead it seems more tastier, adding up to its significance.

The festivals that we celebrate, have been celebrated since years and seeing the increase in the religiousness the people and their belief in festivals we can definitely say that its significance is increasing year in and year out. So how can any factor be depleting the significance of our belovant festivals?

All about A*STAR India Youth Scholarship

The early date of August was welcomed by a thrill of enthusiasm prevailing among the veins. An envelope stuck at my hand that had been sent off by the Singapore Government. I was completely mused by the invitation that had knocked up my door. Though I was aware of something as astonishing as that because my inbox had been sparked up with the flame of hope merely a couple of days ago. I had been invited to sit for the A*STAR Scholarship test that was my goal of the year. Though it had mated my mind, yet I was entirely unaware of the syllabus that the examination followed. Surfs on net and chats with wizards had proved fatal, for yet the syllabus had not yet unfolded for me. The only thing I had been able to know of was that I had to surf through the very test to break out the Indian cage.

Anyways, in the last days I came to know a bit of the exams. The three papers: Maths, English and General Ability were to comprise of questions of higher secondary level. Better late than never, just two days ago, did I lately start up preparing the R.S. Agarwal. But that fat nerd was out of the world for me. I was entirely confused, where to start from. That puzzling and startling ate up my last chances too. Though, after having prognosticated the failure in future, yet I boarded the train to Delhi.

The arrival at the hotel staggered me up, not of nausea or weakness, but of the striking interior. It was beyond fantasies. A heaven at Delhi had waited for me since days. But, the matter wasn't the outside appearance of the five star hotel but the inner being. Yes, I mean that the invigilator, the examination hall and everything else was the best for me, but the papers set up were ravaging.

A virtual narration could begin with the scholarship briefing that we were given. We had a nice interactive juncture with the Singaporeans. I had my mind cleared off from the so- called doubts of the post scholarship exam period. The next was our GAT or General Ability Test. The almost 60 of us (half batch) were giving instructions for advancing forth. We were at first told of the timings and all. I was just freaked to know that the entire 48 of general ability questions were to be done in just 20 minutes. It was a kind of practically impossible. I was just able to complete 38 of the questions. The questions were like complete the pattern kind of. There were figures given to us. But the most boring thing of the shapes that we had to complete was that they had just 5 colours. Just black, white, blue and grey. Anyways, they just seemed childish, but the questions after no. 15 were just tricky ones. But it was fun to have tried out such a level of questions.

The next, was the lunch break, after which we had our Mathematics Test. The most furious and horrid was that test. There were around 34 questions having a number of subparts. The questions covered topics including graphs, squares and square root, linear and simultaneous and quadratic equations, trigonometry, indices and surds, surface area and volume, trigonometry ( a high level one), graphs, triangles, factorization, expansions and so on. The 100 marks paper ( around 2 hours) was harder than anything and was just a total mess for me and most of my fellow mates. I still curse upon myself for not having practiced for the maths test. So I have no hope for myself being selected for the interview after a bad performance in Maths test for which 130 of us had sat altogether.

After a short refreshing half and hour break, we had our English papers. Yes, we had two tests without a break. The first paper comprised of fill up the blanks kind questions that tested our vocabularies and grammatical powers. The test wasn't like choose the right answer questions as in General Ability Test, but a bit of writing of one or two words in the answer paper was also to be done. We were also given two long comprehensions with a bit of questions that fall under the tag of trickiness and simplicity. Then we had inserting of preposition and conjunction type questions. There were around 50 questions altogether to be done in one and a half hours. The time was more than enough. The English exam 1 was just superb for me.

Next, the English exam 2 was a topic of fun, for it included writing of an essay in just 30 minutes. The topics were 'If you recommend some foreigner to visit some historical place in India, what would you recommend and why so?' The other one that I attempted was, 'The most memorable day at school.' The essay writing was fun, though 30 minutes seemed to be insufficient, anyways I made it at the right time.

With the essay framing and a check of demiurgicness, our day at the grand hotel folded up. We bade a bye to our newly made temporary friends. And with this, the day that I had been waiting for since months, ended up.

We were told during the scholarship briefing that the pupil selected, would be sent a mail in late October or early November giving a call for an interview. Its a worth giving exam, so I don't feel regretted even after having messed out the entire answer sheet with stupid answers. Though I have no hope at all, to be selected, yet I can say that this was the most memorable day that would be stored in my archives.